LoveBeing A Mom!

Have started coming to office full shift, ie, twelve hours away from my daughter including travel time :( Whatever I do, I just cant put this thought out of my mind!

The other day I reached home, being in my jolly-happy-go-lucky mood. My maid silently gave her in my lap. Happily I recieved her and started giving her feed. I was so lost in my happiness that after almost ten minutes, I observed that she had a scar above her right eye. For a moment, I was just blank and trying to answer "what could have happened". Thus, understood why mom-in-law and the maid were mum. And, then the story telling begun. Mind was not following, face showing sarcasm. Fed her, went upstairs in my room - had to login back to office. Sulking.

Anyways. She has brought much more joy in my life than I had ever imagined. I am thankful for whatever I have. When she sees me after whole day, she jumps out to reach out to me. She stares me, hugs me and gives a long smooch to my cheek :) I will try to feed her, but no! She'll take a sip, look at me, give the sweetest smile and then again will go back to have her share of what she did not get the whole day!

Feels absolutely great BeingLoved as a mother!!!

Mixed feelings.

My office timings are 11 am-8.30 pm. As of now, I come at 11 and leave early in 5.30 cab, and log in back after reaching home. Friday, I left and... I just did not login back! I so much wanted to be with my daughter...
Every now and then I feel guilty. If I take WFH and be with her, I feel I am not giving cent percent at work. If I come to office, then I feel my daughter needs me more :(

Anyways, I had a wonderful weekend. My hubby came back from US and was happy to see his daughter greet her. Shall I say, she missed him...?

She daily develops a new skill to amuse us all. Sometimes she coos, sometimes will make faces, sometimes will wave her hands, and we all enjoy watching her.
Saturday, I took her to have a couple of vaccinations. Doctor asked him giving oral drops "Tell me the taste baby, tell me how much you like it". And she was relishing every drop! Then he asked her to be brave and made me hold a torch. And guess what, she was so lost in watching light, that she even did not get to know when the process of injecting got over!

But sometimes, she scare us. Yesterday night we went to a wedding, and this was her first official outing (apart from regular doctor visits). She was so excited to see the lights and colours. We came back and I changed our clothes. And suddenly she started puking. For 4-5 minutes, she was not able to breathe. I was so scared that I called up my in laws and hurried her to their room. My mom-in-law asked me to have faith in God.
She again puked, but once everything in her lil stomach was out, she was relieved. She laid her in bed and the next moment what we see... She- with a new naughty smile, sucking her lower lip and making noises! I was smiling at her with my teary eyes. She was again the same lovely angel, as if nothing at all happend to her!

LoveBeing Mother!

BeingLoved as a Mom

Yes, I am back, after a long gap. And hope to spend sometime here now onwards.

I was blessed with a daughter, and I can say that BeingLoved from your kid is altogether a different experience! What a joy it is to hold her in arms, snug her... Those beautiful eyes- which just adore you. That soft touch- which tells you that life is worth living. That smile on her lips- for which you know you can do anything. And that smell of a newborn- ummmmmm

The days just pass giving her kisses, which I never get tired of :) She also loves BeingLoved. She will now be 4 months and I will never forget a single moment spent with her. Especially, now when I have joined office. Now I know, what does it take to leave your baby and do the job. She just watches me going - happily drops me to the cab, oblivious to the fact that I will now be away for atleast 8 hours... sigh!

Watch approaching 5.30, time to go home, Yay!!!